About gwenivere

Hello to everyone!  I have been on a desperate search online today for any help that's out there, financially.  i am a 31 year old single mother, 2 children, ages 4 & 6.  I just relocated less than 3 months ago to get away from an alcoholic man who was beating my kids, and verbally abusing them. 

I had to get away, so I took a leap of faith with my tax return, got my first place to live on my own, but I still haven't found a job!  My money has run completely out, I have job applications in everywhere, 1/2 a tank of gas at this moment, $121 behind on my rent (which $125 will be due again on May 1st), My power is overdue, i can't afford childcare, their father is unemployed so he can't help, I have food stamps so i am not starving, My childen need new clothes (growing out of them and don't have much anyway)  and need an opportunity to make money or help.  I have 12 cents in my bank account, and nothing to sell except a sewing machine that I bought to mend our clothes if needed.  I don't have much at all, just a simple life.  My computer is an old borrowed one from my mom and dad.  They don't have much either so they can't help me.  I don't know what to do, and I refuse to resort to illegal activity of any kind!  i just want my children to have a decent life, and I want to be able to give that to them.  I feel like they aren't going to respect me if they see me fail.  All they have ever seen is me depend on someone else, and I want to be independent.

I have tried looking up loans, but you have to be employed to get that, and all of the home business "jobs" require start up money.  You can't tell what's legitimate anyway.  If anyone has any ideas, a job, money, opportunity, prayers, words of encouragement, clothes for a boy age 4, or a girl age 6, a car they would trade for my windstar van (too much on gas), anything to help please.  I just don't know what to do.

God bless everyone and peace be with you.

"gwenivere"